With all of the time restraints plus my mental and physical conditions, the time that I have spent in this program has stretched longer than for most. Just a few weeks ago, I was ready to give up. But then I got in the class and just started working. Whatever mental block that was in place shifted. I had a new perspective. As of this week, I am ahead in the class (on parts that I am able to work ahead on).
I initially was enrolled this class, my capstone, Action Research, but needed to withdraw because I just could not take the pressure. I ended up with most of November and all of December off, just because of the timing of the course and the placement of the winter break. So I was on target to be enrolled again on January 9th. January 9th came and went, so that evening I e-mailed my advisor to find out what the problem was. The next day, I was enrolled and I ended up being a day behind. I get home and my computer would not log on. The next day, I get on and I start crushing everything. The next week comes and I work hard. Then on January 19th, I get a message about my account, I need to resolve my account by the 22nd or be dropped.
THREE DAYS! WHAT?!?
Just when I get ahead with coursework, I get a roadblock. So then it becomes an issue of what do I do? First, I e-mail student accounts back. We go back and forth, they're not trying to work with me. They're just telling me to do the PLUS loan, pay in full, or sign up for the payment plan. Option 1: I tried but I simply have too many things on my credit and I would either need an endorser or I would need to clarify how I have corrected the things on my account, which I have been unable to do at the moment but we have created our plan. Option 2: I don't have $5000 in the bank. I should but I don't. We were in a financial pothole for awhile. We're not completely repaved but at least the area has stabilized. Option 3: Payment plan. $5000 broken up into three payments. Well, this is a stretch. I have bills to pay so I don't know where the money is going to come from.
So randomly, on January 20, I said that I'm going to start a GoFundMe. Why not? What do I have to lose? I got the idea and I said there has to be something to this idea. So I'm trying it. Click donate if you wish to help me with this.
I don't like asking for help. I like to try things on my own, but I've come so far. Me finishing means so much to my family. Not many people in my family have gone to college and even fewer have their Master's degree. This would mean the world to my husband. At this point, I'm trying to finish to give hope to all of the students that I teach and these two boys that I am raising. When I talk to them, I need to know that when I tell them that they can be anything that they want to be and that they should not give up that I am an example. I've learned a few years ago that we don't learn from what we hear, we learn from what we see. So we can't say "Do what I say and not as I do." Life doesn't work that way. We only really listen to ourselves but we naturally do what we see. I guess it's some kind of survival, instinctual kind of thing.
In closing, here are some verses that I found on the Bible App, that I need to keep in mind and pray over while I am going through this process and waiting for this miracle:
- Jude 1:20 "But ye, beloved, building up yourselves on your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Ghost"
- Ephesians 3:20 "Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us"
I did not realize until now that yesterday's Bible App verse of the day was Jude 1:20 while yesterday's date was January 20th (1:20). So I guess this was meant to be in one form or another.
Thank you for reading and if you wish to donate here it is again: gofundme.com/michelesmasters
